Sowing Season | Life
So I originally wasn’t going to make this post, but I figured that I’d just go ahead. I can’t be the only 20-something trying to figure life out.
I’ve gotten to the point in my college career where I feel completely lost. I don’t know if it’s because I’m close to walking across that stage and getting my degree, but I’ve been feeling more anxious than usual. There are many routes that I can take, but I don’t know which one is right for me. My entire time during college I felt as if I had it all planned out and now I feel like I’m back at square one.
This feeling of uncertainty has put me at a standstill. School is what I’ve known most of my life and grad school is on my list, but figuring out what program I truly want to get into is frustrating, to say the least. It’s easy to say the things you want and it’s easy to envision your future. It’s not until you finally go after what you want and realize that it’s actually not what you want that reality starts to set in.
As I continue to figure out what path I’m going to take, I’m learning to accept that majority of my 20s will be my sowing season. It’s time for trial and error and I’m ready to see what God has in store. I’m letting go of this idea of perfection and fear of failure.
In this sowing season remember…
It’s not a race
As the saying goes, “slow and steady wins the race”. No one’s life is about who finishes first. It’s about going at your own pace and living out the life that was planned for you. Someone’s life can look like it’s taking off and all these great things are happening overnight, but you don’t know how hard they’re working behind the scenes. That person could’ve taken 5+ years before seeing results. So before thinking that where you are isn’t good enough, remember that it’s exactly where you’re meant to be.
Become someone of substance
Don’t just strive for success, but also to become a person of value. Every day work on yourself to become a woman/man of substance, to have something to bring to the table. Know in order for that to happen, you can’t just fast-forward through life. Don’t just focus on outward appearance. You don’t want to be well put together on the outside but suffering within. Feed your mind and soul daily and fill your cup so that you can also pour into others.
Don’t compare. Don’t compete.
Not everyone has it all figured out. Today, social media can have anyone thinking that their life should be a certain way when really that person can be as lost as you. Social media is all personalized— people put up what they want you to see. Same with people in real life, people put on an outward appearance that they want you to see. So before you go and compare yourself to the next person, remember that you’re finding what your purpose is. Same goes for competing. The only person you should want to be better than is the person you were yesterday.
There’s going to have to be a lot of patience
There will be a series of setbacks, plateaus, and progress and that’s the way life goes. The actions that you take now dictate your future. Just because you’re not seeing results overnight doesn’t mean the effort you put in is a waste. When you plant seeds it takes a while for them to grow. Don’t plant something and expect it to be in full bloom the next morning. Take time to nurture and put time into yourself and your work. Whatever you plant now, at any age, you will reap in a different season of your life.
In this season you’re not going to have everything figured out and put together. Trust me, as much as I want to have my own place and to be living how I want, that’s not the plan right now (for me at least). Just know the rewards you get in return will be more satisfying knowing all the hard work that was put in.